An example of this is whenever I was out geocaching with my friends, I basically ruined my own night because I created my bad attitude because I didn't want to speak up and ruin everyone else's night. But now I realize that if I would have said something I would have been able to have a better night and then been invited to the next time they went out geocaching. But it was ALL MY FAULT because I chose not to ask Brian to turn down the music. I don't know why it got me so pissed off, but I just let it eat at me and almost force me into a bad mood until the point where all I wanted to do was punch something (not one of my friends =P).
Anyways, I do not mean to offend anyone, especially Brian. I just wanted to share that that was the reason why I was such a party pooper that night. So I do apologize for that and I just wish I had been able to be myself and not let anything get to me. But sometimes I can't help it AND STILL I don't say anything about it. I just don't understand why I don't speak up. It would make my life so much better I think.
Even for me when it comes to talking to new people, especially girls that I like, I just cannot think of anything to say without sounding like an idiot or having the other person think I am stupid or something. I mean I now I should just be myself, but most people do not accept you for who you are because they expect you to be like everyone else. By this I am talking about the college-guy stereotype of getting drunk all the time and partying. I will talk about this more next time.
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